Why do things always want to happen on the same day. I have started a new job and I have my first Sat. Night closing shift coming up, which of course is on the same night as my audition for a runway show I really want to do. I need more current headshots for my Sat. audition which I can only go to if I can switch shifts with someone. Which is next to impossible because it is 1) a sat. night 2) only two other people in my store have the same position as me 3) is a later close than usual. Of...

My heart goes out to my friend Shana tonight, who just delivered a beautiful baby boy who was stillborn. She had been 6 1/2 months pregnant. I know how hard it is to lose a baby this way, as this is how my daughter died. There is so many unanswered qustions and so much pain. Shana and I where excited to have our children close in age, we always wanted them to play together. Now our babies can be playmates in heaven. We have our own littles angels. Please pray for her and her family, lo...

The first soldier in the Iraqi prisoner abuse case pled guilt to 3 counts today. Spc. Jeremy Sivits pled guilty to conspiracy to maltreat subordinates, or detainees; dereliction of duty for willfully failing to protect detainees from abuse, cruelty and maltreatment; and maltreatment of detainees. He was one of the soldiers taking the pictures of the abuse. Now I think what he did is wrong. Even if you yourself are not doing to abuse, by not stopping it and encouraging it by taking photogr...

In the past two weeks there has been a few stories in MN and the US of mothers killing their babies. It is truly evil. In Minneapolis police searched dumpsters last week for a dead baby which was never found. The mother who was a crack addict, told police that her baby was born stillborn and she threw the baby in a dumpster. Now even if she is telling the truth (can you really trust a crack head?) How sick do you have to be to throw your own flesh and blood in a dumpster. Now being that s...

I don't know who else out there is watching the real world/ road rules challange "The Inferno", but husband and i have watched this season pretty regularly. Tonight was part 1 of a 2 part finale. I am so glad that Katie won the inferno challange and went back to her dumb ass team. I can't stand the road rules team, they are all so bitchy and keep throwing missions to try and get rid of Katie. I hope Katie throws the final mission just to get back at them. They deserve it, especially Veron...

I am just chilling and listening to my new Sublime CD. We re-purchased it at cheapo last week, after being without one for *gasp* almost 2 years. Jaysen had a bunch of CD's stolen out of his car when we lived in Duluth, and that happened to be one of them. I think Sublime is awesome, such a unique sound, it is to bad of the talent lost when Bradley Nowell died. This CD brings back so many memeories, back to when my hubby and I were only dating, and we would road trip down to the citie...

Have you ever noticed while searching for a job, it seems like there are two extremes.... Either there is nothing out there, or you are bombarded with offers? This week I was offered four very different jobs jobs, one as a flight attendent, one as a sales manager, a health aide and at Marshall Fields. After some mental debate I chose the job at Marshall Fields. These job offers come all at once, after a few months of searchong and getting nowhere, I get bombarded with 4 job offers at o...

I feel very lucky because I noticed that Jaime Burnside put me in his favorite blogs. This might not be a big deal to some people but it is huge to me. So thank you Jaime!

I am back from an absence that was not chosen by me. I have been unable to log in to Joeuser for quite some time. Darn it! I noticed that is is really hard not to be able to put your 2 cents in when reading various articles. Well I am back so hello!

From what I understood it is supposed to be easier to post photos now, but I still can't! Can anyone help me?

I joined the wedge today. The Wedge is a food co-op a few bocks from my house. I began shopping at co-ops after I was diagnosed with celiac disease and found they offered a lot of gluten free foods. The Wedge has the friendliest employees I have ever seen. They are all so helpful, it is amazing, the will drop anything to help you out. They will order you special products if there is somthing you want that they don't have. They have the BEST produce section of organic fruits and vegis. T...

Now that Mothers day is coming up, it has been very emotional for me. This was supposed to be my first mothers day with my daughter. So Sunday (May 9) is going to be really hard. People don't think of me as a Mom anymore now that my daughter is gone. I found this poem that helped me validate that I am a mom. What makes a Mother? Written by Jennifer Wasik In memory of Zachery Wasik. I thought of you and closed my eyes And prayed to God today I asked "What makes a Mother?" And ...

I found this on a website. (www.geocities.com/babiesinheaven) I thought it described how I feel often about my daughter. People don't know how to act... I wish they would read this. I wish you would not be afraid to mention my baby. The truth is just because you never saw my baby doesn’t mean he or she doesn’t deserve your recognition. I wish that if we did talk about my baby and I cried you didn’t think it was because you have hurt me by mentioning my baby. The truth is I need to cry ...

I am sick...AGAIN. I think all the stress lately caught up with my immune system, and BAM I have a horrible cold. I want to go outside and enjoy the nice spring day, but I am to sick. I don't understand how you can have a runny and a stuffy nose at the same time.... I took some cold medicine, and although my throat still hurt, my nose is not as much a problem... Although now I feel floaty... as you can probably tell from my writing. I am going to go take vitamins, and drink a gla...

My mom is the greatest. Today as I was cleaning our old townhouse, scrubbing it top to bottom. My mom brought my over chicken friend rice from my favorite chinese food place. She knew I would be hungry and could use a break.... She knows me really well! My mom is always doing nice things for me, she is the most selfless person I know. She loves her kids, and will do anything for them. My brother, sister and I are very lucky.