Why did I drink a soda at 10 pm? It is now 2:15 am and no sleep in sight!!!!! I tried laying down for an hour to no avail. I was sure I would be fine having a can of Cherry Pepsi. Apparently not. I need to be up for work in 5 and 1/2 hours, and I can't even fall asleep. Bah! I have a feeling come 7 am, I will feel like I could sleep just fine. Story of my life!

Tonight Jay and I went to Ikea to get a new duvet cover. Unfortunatly they were out of stock for the one I wanted, so the old one is just going to have to do for the time being. Luckily though we got a new coffee table that works really well for our living room, it is more sturdy and a better match to the wood on our entertainment center. Best of all it was dirt cheap!!!!! I really like Ikea and all, but I notice that the lights there give me a headache, so I am not as much a fan as I w...

I would like to preface this by saying I have never not been offered a job that I have interviewd for, so today was a first lesson in disapointment. Last month I applied for a promotion and have been working my butt off to prove myself. All my superiors kept telling me how impressed they are with me and so on... So I finally got my interview for the positon a week ago. The interview went alright, and I knew that there were other applicants that they would interview before I found out. ...

I have been really busy, but am still alive! Look for a new article coming soon!

Of course as soon as I felt I was "finding Myself", I fall back to square one. I feel lost. I am having a rough time right now. People I thought were my friends, are not. I feel like my kindness is taken advantage of, and I am sick of it. I am bitter. I have lost some really important friendships these last few months and most recently, and it burns. People you thought would be there forever are leaving you. I think I put way to much energy into friendships. Screw it. I give up....

It may be shallow, but I want to be famous. I think a big part of me is still in awe of the idea of my name in lights, camera's flashing. I know being famous can suck a lot. But I want to be the center of attention. I want to be the name on everyones tounge, if only for a day. I wish I was a model or an actress. I want to see my name in the credits, to view myself on the big screen I want to sign autographs. I want to be beautiful, to wear expensive gowns, to debut the latest fashion...

I think I am finally growing into my skin. I think lately I have been searching. Searching for myself, for direction, for who I am. I started not caring what people thought of me, which for me is a difficult thing to do. I have started living for me. I have become a bit selfish, but am actually starting to know myself. I have been changing, new friendships being formed, old friendships drifting away, and I still ask myself what the hell I am doing. I feel trapped in a shitty j...

My most favorite color in the world is pink, and I have been contemplating dying my hair pink. My only problem is as it grows out and fades it looks really stupid. Problem solved. I got a few stratigically placed pink extensions, which I absolutly LOVE. They last about 2 months at which point they either have to be tightened or cut out. Yay, I have pink hair!

When you look back at your life do you remember everything, or just certian moments that stick out over others. We tend to remember moments about oursleves and others. During a eulogy, people speak of the important positive moments in our life. Marriages, Children, professional and personal acomplishments. Not all momets are positive. Are you reminded more often of the negative moments in you life? The mistakes? Do you dwell on the moments that you wish you could change, those you wish ...

I have been very interested, in light of recent articles, how cultural and racial biases are formed. IMO I think it has to be ignorance. To generalize an entire group of people seems ludicris. I racked my brain trying to think of a whole group I am prejudiced against and I could not think of one. I would like to think I am not the minority in this. I am more hopeful in humanity to think that this the norm. I know in every group of people there are unfavorable members, but should we...

Friday night I was in Labor and Delivery. My contractions were 4 minute apart, and was having bloody show. (sorry if TMI) So I called my Dr. and they said to go in. They hooked me up to the moniters, and checked to see if I was leaking amniotic fluid. (I wasn't). But I had dialated 2 more cm since being seen in the clinic, and my contractions were regular and strong so they thought I was in Labor. After an hour and a half and I hadn't dialated any further, they wanted me to walk around the...

I had my check up today. Baby is down really low, and very effaced. My cervix is very soft and starting to dialate! YAY! She said maybe in the next week, but she doesn't see me going past 2 weeks. Thank goodness. I had gained more weight and the baby is estimated to be about 7 1/2 pounds right now. (the margin of error in their estimates is a pound either way.) She said I have a pretty decent sized baby, who seems to be growing very well. She thinks if I can get a lot of good strong co...

I think I should either stop answering the phone or change the message on our voice mail to go somthing like this.... "You have reached the Andersons, No Joey has not had the baby yet, and no we don't know when, If you are calling for any other reason please leave a message." You would think between 2 weeks of pre term labor, a full moon, a ton of walking, I would start laboring, but No. I think she will be staying in forever.

I had to run to Target to pick up a few things I still needed to put in my hospital bag. When I came back home I found all the plactic/rubber parts of my brand new pump strewn across the kitchen and dining room. All chewed up and ruined. So basically $60.00 out the window. The damn cat stole it out of the bag it was in waiting to be sterilized. I am furious. It is not like I have a lot of extra money laying around since I had to start my maternity leave 3 weeks early. Now I have to buy a ne...