Published on August 9, 2004 By Janders In Misc
I think I am finally growing into my skin. I think lately I have been searching.

Searching for myself, for direction, for who I am.

I started not caring what people thought of me, which for me is a difficult thing to do.

I have started living for me. I have become a bit selfish, but am actually starting to know myself.

I have been changing, new friendships being formed, old friendships drifting away, and I still ask myself what the hell I am doing.

I feel trapped in a shitty job, but am liking the person I am becoming in spite of it.

I find new meaning in songs, think deeply about senarios, over anayzing everything. I am starting to acccept all the drama that is being me.

I am not startled by the person in the mirror that stares back at me, Somehow realizing that I am the one in the mirror.

In the past I have felt distant from myself, thinking I had no control over my life. I am starting to take responsibility for my destiny.

I just hope I like what I find when I find out who I am.

Comments
on Aug 10, 2004
Yep you are growing up! Little secret... this eveloution never stops. Or at least it should not. We should always be working on self. Now the tricky part is find the you that makes you happy, and try to be happy while hubby is being the person that makes him happy. To do that sometimes you need to decide to be happy being someone slightly diffrent then you are. Confused yet....
on Aug 10, 2004

you go, girl !

*does the happy dance*

good for you, joey

vanessa/mig XX