I have been having a horrible last few days. On Thursday night we (Jayna and I) were at one of our moms groups and the most unimaginable thing happened. A baby died.... A little four week old boy stopped breathing. We thought he was sleeping, but he was not. I just can't believe this happened. We moved his tiny body to the floor and I began CPR. But I couldn't breathe life into this little one. I just can't believe it. To witness the death of such a short life, and not be able to do ...

A couple of weekends ago we went out to the stables with my mom and dad to see my sister Monica in a horse show. We brought baby to meet the horses too! That is Grandma Jill (my mom) and Jayna meeting Lance Monica's horse. And Jayna in Auntie Monica's cowboy hat, my dad is holding her. Monica won one of her agility events with her other horse Gunner. Way to go Auntie!

Jayna and I are loving our silk brocade FreeHand Mei tai!

In the 8 weeks since we have had our daughter we have gone through an unbelievable amount of diapers. Probably close to 500 if not more. The thought of all those going to a landfill and polluting the earth disgusts me. Not olny that but little Jayna has already had two minor diaper rashes on account that the diapers don't "breathe". So we are making the switch to cloth..... For those of you who remember the diaper, pin and rubber pants, those days are long gone. There are very fancy cloth...

We went to the Minnesota state fair yesterday with my sister and her boyfriend. What a fun time! Jayna spent most of the time riding in the mei tai and sling worn by me or my sister. We brought the stroller which ended up working well to carry all our stuff, even though Jayna didn't ride in it much. The best part was the food. I had Kettle corn, beef jerky, frozen grapes, cider freeze, and some honey sticks. The others had more traditional fair food. Corn dogs, french fries, and lemonades....

I have a new passion. Baby wearing. Little Jayna just loves to be worn. I am now the proud owner of a moby wrap, a 4 peas baby sling and a freehand mei tai asian baby carrier. I may buy another pretty sling next week. There are so many options for wonderful ways to wear your baby. I still want to get a pouch and a woven wrap... So much fun!

It seems like just yesterday I was whining that the summer was going by so slow. All my focus was on the fact my baby daughter had not arrived yet. What a whirlwind. I can't believe the summer is almost over! Pretty soon my husband will be back to teaching and I will have to start back at work. (part time) Jayna will be spaending three afternoons a week at grandma's and grandpas. I am distraught over this. The though of leaving my precious daughter for 12 hours a week, brings me to tea...

It is our cities celebration this week. Today there is sidewalk sales downtown, arts and crafts sales, a car show and outdoor music and dancing at the local bar. For Lunch Jay and I decided to go downtown and get some good old fair food! I got some roasted corn on the cob and a sno-cone, and Jay ate a corn dog. Unfortunatly it was warm and really muggy out, so the weather was not to appetizing. I may go back tonight for the "cruise night", and eat some more goodies, but Jay has to work, so...

Tonight we had some friends over that we went to college with. We grilled and chatted, and played some scrabble. A low key night, but fun. I didn't really sleep last night. I had super intense contractions that kept me awake. (OUCH) I finally got the pain managable after a soak in the tub. It made the contractions managable, and they lasted all day, but they never regulated enough to warrent calling L&D. I have a check up tommorow. I really hope I have shown some progression, but am sta...

it is about 8pm on July 3rd. I am thinking it would be awesome if I went into labor in the next few hours. Then I could have a little independece day baby! i have been feeling kind of sick today (somtimes a sign of labor) and having a lot of cramping and shooting back pains (another possible sign of impending labor). So I am hoping this could be very soon! I think it would be wonderful to have her tommorow. Fireworks on your birthday, it's a paid holiday, and who doesn't love fourth o...

Alright Miss Dharma, I have to give you a hard time because you predicted I would be holding my little girl by today! While the night isn't over for another 4 hours.... I'm waiting!!! I did go to the Dr. today. I am still only a little over 2 cm dialated. I have no idea when she's will come. My Dr. thinks in the next weel, but she said to, they really never know.

A Wisconsin woman gave birth to a baby that weighed almost 14 pounds this week. OUCH! She had a c-section, but that is a lot of baby! The baby doesn't even fit in newborn diapers or clothes and is already wearing size 3-6 months. ' I hope I have this baby before she gets that big! Look at the link to see the photo of one giant infant. http://www.themilwaukeechannel.com/news/4660578/detail.html?subid=22100414&qs=1;bp=t

Tonight Jay was working and I was BORED. I decided I would install the base and car seat in our car. It has the latch system, so I really had to follow the directions closely. It was harder than I thought, but mostly because it is really hard to crawl around the back seat when you have a belly the size of Montana. It took me a long time, because I was triple checking EVERYTHING. After almost an hour, I was sweating to death, but it was IN. It's in there so tight, so I hope I did it right!...

Friday night I was in Labor and Delivery. My contractions were 4 minute apart, and was having bloody show. (sorry if TMI) So I called my Dr. and they said to go in. They hooked me up to the moniters, and checked to see if I was leaking amniotic fluid. (I wasn't). But I had dialated 2 more cm since being seen in the clinic, and my contractions were regular and strong so they thought I was in Labor. After an hour and a half and I hadn't dialated any further, they wanted me to walk around the...

I had my check up today. Baby is down really low, and very effaced. My cervix is very soft and starting to dialate! YAY! She said maybe in the next week, but she doesn't see me going past 2 weeks. Thank goodness. I had gained more weight and the baby is estimated to be about 7 1/2 pounds right now. (the margin of error in their estimates is a pound either way.) She said I have a pretty decent sized baby, who seems to be growing very well. She thinks if I can get a lot of good strong co...