Yes it's true! Hubby and I are finally pregnant! We are expecting a bundle of Joy the end of June or first week in July! I am so thrilled.... Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers that we have a healthy baby and that he or she makes it... I am worried and excited, but most of all blessed.

On October 27th my poppa died. I was at the apatment of his and my grandmas, when my mom and I went in to check his breathing and pulse, and found neither. As we waited for the ambulance I lay next to the body of my poppa, holding him and sobbing as he was gone, and I couldn't believe it. I had just been talking to him 20 minutes before! He hugged me and told me how much he loved me, and I knew in that moment his love was true and bigger than the whole world. His funeral was Novembe...

It's official... I need a maid. My house is becoming a pit. My floors need to be mopped and my bookcases are quite dusty. I need to get my winter clothes out of storage and figure out where the heck they are going to go, as space is quite limited. I need to go through and get rid of clothes I have not worn latley. Why wasn't I born wealthy, so I could pay someone to do it, or would have time to do it myself. Bah!

I had a wonderful girls weekend away up north this past weekend. We went to a resort and had an awesome time! I think girls weekend should be mandatory once a year. A few bottle of wine and girl talk, you can sure learn a lot about people! That all said, I am so glad to be home. I missed Jaysen SOOOOO much. I keep having to hug him to make up for lost time! I think it is funny that in 3 days you can miss home so much. I came home and took a nap in my comfy bed, and snuggled with my cats. I...

Today marked another negative pregnancy test. I was praying that this would be the month. Maybe next month, then the baby would be due end of June..... I am still obsessed, I was holding some ones 2 month old baby at the football game tonight, he was beautiful. I held him for about 45 minutes and I could have snuggled him forever... I hate all these negative pregnancy tests....

This morning my husband had to get up an extra 20 minutes earlier than he ussually does so he could bring me to my car. Instead of being crabby about it, he woke me up with kisses and hugs. As we were driving to my car, he went out of the way to caribou, to buy me a hot tea for my sore throat. Isn't he a doll? I am so lucky to have him.

Alright, it's official..... I am baby crazy. I have babies on the brain, its all I think about. If I don't get pregnant soon I think I will scream. (Or cry, but I do that at every negative test!) Today I was holding a customers baby at work, and I didn't want to give him back. I wish we would get pregnant soon, I hope this is the month. The only thing that would be kind of scary is that if we get pregnant this month, we will have a close due date to Jayden's due date. I will keep...

Last Friday was Jaysen and I's 2 year wedding anniversery. While I am sad the "newlywed" period is over, I am exicted for the future, and what is to come. This last two years we have been through so much, 4 moves, hospitalizations, a college graduation, new jobs, the loss of our baby daughter, illness, and a lot of change. I hope all the stress and tragedy of the past have only made us stronger. I feel like we can make it through anything now. I love you Jaysen, this is just the ...

I was watching the Ashlee Simpson show today and low and behold who do I see? My Sister! She was security for when Ashlee was at the MOA, and they show my sister escorting her to the stage. My sister, what a star!

I am very close to my family and love them dearly. I have been very busy and have not been able to see my family in a few weeks and I think I am going through withdrawl. First off, I love my family. We have our spats (well that is mostly just me and my sister), but i am lucky to be blessed with a good family. My mom is my best friend. I feel like I can tell her everything. And although she looks down on me somtimes,(she thinks I give up to easy) I ussually repect her opinion of me. I often...

Our new cat Thomas Jefferson had a bit of the end of a cold when we got him from the shelter. It seems he has passed it to our other cat Truman. Now Jefferson walks around sneezing, sniffiling and snorting all day. While poor Truman is sleeping more pouting and has a sneeze and some louder breathing. Now I have to spend my only day off out of ten days of work, bringing my poor kittys to the vet. I feel like a mom already!

Latley my huband always has his ipod on. I love when I am in the other room and I hear him singing along to the songs. I can't hear the songs themselves because of the head phones, but I think it is so cute when I hear him singing along. He is so adorable, I love him to pieces.

I feel like we live in a culture on the go. People are always busy, overbooked and full of plans. Our food is made to be on the go, Our cars not only get us from point a to point b, thy entertain us with CD's Dvd's and communication systems. Things we own must be small so we can grab them and go at a moments notice. Grab your laptop, your phone with wireless internet (alway have to be conected), your i-pod (do you really need all 4000 songs you own at a touch of the button?) I am gul...

On Sunday it was my poppa's 74th birthday. Our whole family went to me grandma and poppa's to celebrate. It was really nice to be able to see everyone again. Everyone came except my sister(she had to work) and my Cousins Jamie, Kuzuko, and there son Kentaro. (They are in Japan) We had Pizza and snacks and visited. My poppa can be kind of grumpy when there are lots of people around, topped by the fact he just got out of a one week hospital stay, but I think he truley enjoyed us being there....

Tonight as I got off work, I called my husband at work. (He works PT at applebees in the summer to supplement his teaching checks.) I was planning on stopping there for a little supper and was letting him know I ws on my way. When I called the host told me he hadn't shown up for work that day. Jaysen is one of the most responsible persons I know, so that was completly out of character. I was a little worried, so I called home. He was not at home, so of course what do I think. "Ther...