I love my husband so much! He has been on spring break this week and we have been able to spend a lot of time together. He is the best guy I could ever ask for. He has cooked me yummy breakfast's. And took me shopping yesterday. He hates shopping, but loves me so he took me. I love all the nice things he does to make me feel special. He gives me random hugs and kisses. We have been taking naps during his break. I love cuddling with him and taking a little rest. Spending the day with him is he...

Latley I have been plauged...Our daughter died last November. I went in to labor to early and she did not make it. Our darling angel Jayden Lynn, went to heaven before she spent time on earth. Even though our time with our Jayden was short, she is still my daughter, and I love her dearly. My time with her is now spent at the cemetary, or thriugh the letters I write to her. We are very proud of our daughter, she was concived after a year of infertility and doctors saying We may never have chi...

This week Jaysen and I begin a new adventure... we are moving to downtown Minneapolis! We are moving to an awesome building that was built in the ealy 1900;s, and was a huge hotel. Their is really cool architecture, and huge ceilings. Although my sister says the common hallways remind her of the shining.... WE love our new neighborhood, it is such a drastic change from living in the suburbs our whole life. Instead of farm fields and lakes, we see the Minneapolis skyscrapers. The culture of...

I had a really nice Friday with my dad. We drove up north to our cabin to turn the water on, and set up delvering for re-roofing supplies. We drove around, had a little afternoon lunch and turned back to drive home. On our way home we stopped at Albertville Premium outlets. We spent a few hours there looking for deals and just browsing. It was so fun. My dad loves shopping as I do, so we are excellent shopping partners! I had such an awesome time with my dad.... In fact I think it will ...

The other day spring had decided to show itself, so Hubby and I went to the cemetary where our little girl is buried. We have not been able to get a marker yet. Hopefully we can put one in this summer. The grave had sunk in which upset me, but they will fill it this week. I guess it sink because she was buried in winter and the snow melt sinks in the ground. Now all my pictures with Jayden will be here... It is bittersweet. We love her so much.

We have a new member of our family. Yes Mr. Right and I adopted today. He has beautiful big blue eyes and short hair. Our new baby is one and a half, and very very busy. He has loves playing with toys and loves to cuddle. We picked him up from the shelter today. Truman is a sweet guy, we are excited to have him in our home. Yes he is a fine and handsome young guy! He also is a cat! Suprise! Anyone that knows me knows I am not a cat person. Truman is the exception. He is one cool cat. He ...

For those of you who have read my blog or know me "in person", know that we lost our daughter Jayden Lynn last November while I was in my 2nd trimester. Until now we have not been ready to try again. (did you read that close? Unitl NOW) Thats right, I have baby fever! I have been dreaming of being pregnant, cooing over every baby and pregnant woman I see, and feeling very maternal. We were looking at planning a vacation, and any place involving drinking I gave the veto. (Cancun, Vegas,...

My Birthday was on Friday, and it ended up being a wonderful day, thanks in large part to my wonderful husband! Unfortuantly I was unable to get off work and had to be there at seven, but my sweet husband suprised me with a bouqet of flower at work.... what a DOLL! After work I picked up my cuz at the airport, because she was sweet enough to fly down just for my b-day! Am I lucky or what! Although it was thuderstorming it stopped just long enough to start the grill and BBQ our food. H...

My heart goes out to my friend Shana tonight, who just delivered a beautiful baby boy who was stillborn. She had been 6 1/2 months pregnant. I know how hard it is to lose a baby this way, as this is how my daughter died. There is so many unanswered qustions and so much pain. Shana and I where excited to have our children close in age, we always wanted them to play together. Now our babies can be playmates in heaven. We have our own littles angels. Please pray for her and her family, lo...

Now that Mothers day is coming up, it has been very emotional for me. This was supposed to be my first mothers day with my daughter. So Sunday (May 9) is going to be really hard. People don't think of me as a Mom anymore now that my daughter is gone. I found this poem that helped me validate that I am a mom. What makes a Mother? Written by Jennifer Wasik In memory of Zachery Wasik. I thought of you and closed my eyes And prayed to God today I asked "What makes a Mother?" And ...

I found this on a website. (www.geocities.com/babiesinheaven) I thought it described how I feel often about my daughter. People don't know how to act... I wish they would read this. I wish you would not be afraid to mention my baby. The truth is just because you never saw my baby doesn’t mean he or she doesn’t deserve your recognition. I wish that if we did talk about my baby and I cried you didn’t think it was because you have hurt me by mentioning my baby. The truth is I need to cry ...

My mom is the greatest. Today as I was cleaning our old townhouse, scrubbing it top to bottom. My mom brought my over chicken friend rice from my favorite chinese food place. She knew I would be hungry and could use a break.... She knows me really well! My mom is always doing nice things for me, she is the most selfless person I know. She loves her kids, and will do anything for them. My brother, sister and I are very lucky.

Our cat Truman is crazy. I think he has lost his mind. He likes the new house and procedes to run full speed back and forth across the house sliding into walls. (We have terra cotta floors) He also keeps trying to climb up the jackets in the closet to try and swat the drawstrings. Truman is part siamese so he has the well known siamese meow. For those unfamilar... think a crying baby. We likes to awaken us at 5 am with this. He constantly need attention. He will bring his toys over and dro...

Yuck, spring is missing in action! We got 7 inches of snow today. Of course the schools were closed in the city we live in but not at the school where my hubby teaches. BAH! I am starting to think spring will never come! Here the snow is.....

Yes it's true! Hubby and I are finally pregnant! We are expecting a bundle of Joy the end of June or first week in July! I am so thrilled.... Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers that we have a healthy baby and that he or she makes it... I am worried and excited, but most of all blessed.